This isn't the normal update, because most of the time i put things in order from when i wrote them, and this is most defnitely not the earliest thing i wrote this summer. i just wanted to show you a new style of writing i've been doing. i used to write in a very structured way, using lots of rhyme scheme and focusing mainly on that. lately, i've completely ignored structure, and just started writing in paragraph form. hope you like it.
Tell me what happens when this is over. Knowing may be half the battle, but living is tenfold. Since you faded, I've watched my future die, so softly, so sweetly. When you feel my static gaze, hear my silent melodies, know that I love you. Know that I broke the glass coffin that held my soul to reach for the part of me that will never forget you. The box that once held my feelings has been shattered, and my feet are bloodied and scarred from stepping on the shards that still cover the floor. This is not a love song, but a declaration of dependance. You don't know hurt until you have a thousand pins and needles shoved into every limb, like I did when I was torn between my love and watching it disappear forever.
I want to disappear forever. Follow my heart from here until never. I want to renew the horizons, and follow my heart from here until never.
Follow me, we'll fade into the white noise of love's fear and confusion, that keeps us same throughout the cold of our fusion. Hold my hand as I tell you of the gateway into immortality, that is called harmony. If I ever said I was afraid, I didn't mean it more than I do now. Our conversations reach the stars and back, but never left me empty. You don't know hurt, you don't know pain until you have pins and needles shoved into every limb like I did when I was torn between my love and watching it disappear forever.
©Ben Morse 2005